"Today today today, I'm finally on my way"....opening line from James Taylor tune on his latest album. That is how I feel. Went back and read until late last night; everyone's comments, well wishes, quitsmokingonline, and more. Today I have a new sense of separation between myself and my addiction. I see it, I see me. We're no longer the same. There is a smidgen of daylight now between me and it.
Worked out today...been a gym rat my whole life. Breathing so much better in just two weeks. I used to laugh at the irony of working out several days a week and then rewarding myself with one of those coffin nails afterwards. Jerry Lee Lewis sang in Great Balls of Fire "I laughed at love cause I thought it was funny". I did the same with the gym and smoking. I thought it was funny...Well, this kind of funny ain't funny no more. The gym felt great today and even better without the 40 year irony of a cigarette while I cooled down......
mdmd