I didn't have to get Mason off to school this morning because my daughter didn't work last night so I slept in until 7 but I slept like crap because I couldn't shut my mind off. My 12 yrold grandson Adam is with his mother and step father, my son and her split when Adam was 2 yrs old, he's been having a hard time in school and he biked here after school yesterday vibrating and very upset, he didn't want to talk about it which was ok. I told him I had to call his mom so of course she came and was upset, yelling at him and so on. I guess he's expelled for the rest of the week, I hope that she will let me know what's going on this afternoon, life happens whether we smoke or not and yesterday afternoon was really hard because my heart went out to Adam but I couldn't help him and his mother said he threatened suicide. I told her to take him serious so he isn't another statistic, all of that was going through my head trying to go to sleep and the only thought about smoking was and is how thankful I am that I finally wised up and quit smoking because it wouldn't of helped one bit but most likely would've made things worse, I need to keep my quit and be here for Adam in case he needs me and not be outside sucking on a stupid cigarette but thankfully I don't have to worry about anymore and thank God for that . We all have our stressers and problems but you can get through them so much better without the crutch and once you realize that I can tell you from experience how the weight comes off your shoulders because you know that you can and are dealing with life on lifes terms and it's a great feeling so keep moving forward in your quit and if you aren't yet then you should be soon reaping the benefits of an Ex smoker!
Marilyn 806 DOF
