I still feel like an Elder, but I have a newbie number. I have all the wisdom but feel like I don't deserve to share it. I feel horrible that I flushed my Quit but I did all of the right things afterward like I would tell anyone to do. My Quit was my baby and I put it in the trash. I know that what's done is done, I have shed so many tears and I did this to myself. When I opened the front door that night, I didn't think I will just go in there and smoke, (some say I did have it in my mind,I didn't) but that's what I did! No thoughts of any of this! Please don't tell me to stop kicking myself, I know I can't go back, too late for that!
Some have told me "you can do this" Of course I can I already did! I am moving forward but this hurts, it hurts a lot.The big girl panties just don't feel like they fit anymore! Feeling sorry for myself? Yes, I am, I am trying not to wallow in it, but this feels horrible! I just want to run away and hide and come back when I get to 500 again! But I need to be here! I NEED TO BE HERE! Can you help me?
So what am I?
Terrie 3 DOF
Don't Quit on your Quit!
