Yesterday I officially joined with five others a local church I've been attending since Fran's death. The congregation had welcomed me with open arms. Palm Sunday is when they introduce new members. Two others and I were baptized as well. I was nervous and Alison, my daughter, was there as my support. I am happy to be joining a caring and loving organization. Alison liked the fact she was able to see two dogs there as well. When we came back from a road trip, they had dropped off tulips on our porch. It made me feel good to be part of an organization that cares. I wasn’t really a religious person but really like the friendship. It’s where I’ve been going since late May to calm my mind and soul. Acceptance was and still is important to me. This church is very good to me. I didn’t realize how much this helps me through all the craziness I’ve been going through in the past year. The anniversary of Fran’s death is right around the corner now. So much has changed and soon our residence will change too – not because I want to. So many changes are going on and some make my heart hurt but not all of it’s under my control. That’s what makes me sad and blue at times. I am glad I have my daughter Alison because if I was alone in all of this, I don’t know what I would do. Sadness, feeling betrayed and other emotions going on right now with our residence and just life in general not easy to handle. I am learning to take things day by day. If this was meant to be it would all work out in the end. I just must have a little faith and work on a solution. Solutions will come in time and having some faith in God helps too.
