So I quit!
It is not even a full day.... my quit day for yesterday, but I got scared and moved one day to June 2.. this morning I woke up, ashamed, and said - I will not do this again, today is TheDayIQuit !
So I it is past 5PM now..I usually smoke almost a pack by this time.
I drank way less coffee than usual - it does not taste nice. I have a headache - probably caffeine withdrawal too.
I am just taking it 3 minutes at a time.. with each craving. And they are a lot. A LOT. SO MUCH.
I found myself going to my "smoke spot" multiple times a day today without even realizing what I am doing. Good there are no cigarettes there now or I would have smoked.
I don't know yet how the evening will be. It gets worse as the day ends. Looks like every 5 minutes I deal with cravings, I am very nervous, irritated, and not nice to my kids.
I feel like my privilege to smoke was taken away. I know that is not true. That quitting is my choice and the special thing I am doing FOR ME, for my happiness, for my future. However, my smoker's brain keeps telling me that's not true and I will feel better smoking.
All my day was about how I will pass the time the next 3 minutes. One craving at a time. and again. and again..
I can't believe I made it until 5PM with no smoking. I surprised myself.
I know I must give myself more credit however I keep thinking I will fail.
PS: I am using NRT patches and also used lozenges when I was totally going nuts.
