The last time I vaped was 9PM EST last night. I woke up at 7AM in horrible withdrawal. Immediately I began my nicotine replacement therapy. I can’t take the patch because it gives me too much anxiety. I have gum and lozenges. I can take up to 9 of eitherone a day. How in the world am I going to get through this? I’m in recovery. I’m also in mental health treatment for trauma. PTSD, depression and anxiety. On the 9th of this month I’ll have a year sober from all other substances besides caffeine. I’ve been through opioid withdrawal. Will this be as bad? I’m going to remember all the tools I have from my 12 step program. I’m going to call my sponsor. I’m doing this because I met with my cardiologist on Monday and my cholesterol is in the danger zone. I’m at imminent risk of having a heart attack or stroke. I HAVE to put down the vape. Period. Immediately. Relapsing on anything is not an option. I’ve worked my **bleep** off to get and stay sober. Grant me the serenity…Female, 49. My name is Rachel.
