Yes, I'm sorry to say, I relapsed.
I was doing very well, too. But, I had a very, VERY stressful situation at home. Was that an excuse? Probably not. But, I relapsed anyway.
I have a neighbor who lives right behind me. She's an alcoholic. She took in a former tenent of mine, who robbed me of @ $20,000. Since then, she's been harrassing me. She wants to be his "champion" or something, I guess. This has been going on for 2 years. And she's escalated. She's now threatened me, and filed a false police charge against my son. I've had the police here more often than I can shake a stick at. Three neighbors have seen her come over and attack me, totally unprovoked. I can't even enjoy my yard. Her dogs have attacked my son's g/f's children and she does nothing, though she witnessed it!
I had to get a restraining order against her. And I've been advised to report her to the board of health as an impaired physician. But, she's totally crazy and, frankly, I'm scared of what she'll do next, if I do. We have to go to court on Monday.
So, I relapsed. My son and his g/f and her kids are staying with me for a while. She smokes. The sickarettes were right here, and it was just too easy to pick up. I asked, she handed a butt right over to me. My bad, yes. I'm making no excuses. My nerves were completely shot! The police were here three times the day I picked up, and I had to call them a forth time, due to this nut case!
This is my summer vacation from school. I still have to do 40 hours of professional development. I've been looking for a part time job, to help pay for the oil bill this coming winter, but, no one's hiring. My mom is sick, and I"m going to have to spend 10 days with her. Some vacation, huh? :>(
My plan is to quit again on July 22nd. That's my birthday. It's a good time for a quit. A new start. In the meantime, I"m still taking one chantix each day, to keep it in my blood and brain neurotransmitters. I hope that's the right thing to do...
Anyway, I just wanted you all to know.
Shalom!
