Kelly, sounds like you had it rough? i did too, its hard to talk abuot without tears...
i don't know if you believe...but i will take a chance and perhaps, this will help you as it has me.
To get something you never had, you have to do something you’ve never did.
When God takes something from you he isn’t punishing you, but, merely opening your hands to receive something better, Concentrate on this sentence…the will of God will never take me where the grace of God will not protect me.!!
Be Blessed!!
Sara