Something that may help more to understand the pain I am going through.
Thank you all. I am so happy to see what you have to say. It helps me to get through my good and not so good days.
The habit of it all is horrible and it messes with our brain with being such a mental addition. It pains me that I have allowed SOMETHING to control my life for so long. It is like running away from an abusive relationship with no justice system to intervene. You make a choice to remove the potency of it, and yet it comes into your home through the shadows of the darkness. It visits you while you are with friends at night, or even shows up a your place of work without an invite. Tries to seduce you in all aspects of your life. If this was a man that your daughter dated, what would you do to save her? How can you do that with an invisible and silent killer that was and still is a everyday nightmare that is impossible to shake loose?
This is just one of the ways I found that makes the most sense in explaining smoking to a non-smoker. I was just as uneducated about the addicts of a drug addict. NOW, I understand.....shame on all of me for allowing this control when God is to be my #1!!!!!
Love you all dearly, Carol
