I didn't check in yesterday for my first double-digit day but wait I don't celebrate until I'm finished with that day....so I'm right on time Day 10 is done 🙂 12 days no alcohol, 3 days without the nic patch, coffee consumption is 1/2, walking every day. Typing this is scaring me because I've gained so much, I've wanted to offer myself this for so long & what if I fail? My library is getting Allen Carr's book so like another of us I will be 2 weeks into quit when I read it. Last evening when a craving came up it was so strong & was saying something like "you must smoke, your life depends on it" I know that sounds weird but it's the only way I can explain how it felt. The next one I would like to face it I mean really face it, what's behind such a strong feeling. Even as it was happening I was running screaming no no no, ooh maybe say no no no out loud could that bring me face to face with IT.
Pardon the self absorption I do try to kudo & respond to posts because I want to be a part of the support you all are providing however not real adapt with the website ex. I came across a blog that resonated but it was from years ago so it seemed silly. Ok I feel you all saying, it's all good, self-absorption is normal in the beginning, because how could it be anything else. No matter how much we reach out and are heard and supported it still will remain a solo journey.
Beautiful day to you all 🙂
