Abbie peacefully went to sleep yesterday about noon.I was able to cuddle her as she went to sleep.
Today I have the psychologist's appt. that I had made before Abbie's illness came up. That is a good thing.
I am not giving up on quitting. I have gone back and reread info and blogs I had saved. I need to develop a plan for when I feel extremely stressed. What I had was inadequate to handle the unexpected situations. I know it can be done as I see it here everyday. Looking back, my situations all seem to be related to feeling a lack of control. It is ironic because the one thing I had control over was whether I smoked or not.
I don't have friends that I can call and say, come over for a cup of coffee. So your kind and loving words the past few days have been uplifting and sustaining. I also appreciated the comments with wisdom, suggestions and tough love (although they were very gentle). What a wonderful family you are. Janet
