So I am on day 3 and I think it is all starting to sink in. I read Allen Carr's book, did the quitsmokingonline course, came on here and did all the activities, but the first two days were pretty awful. Thought I was doing something wrong AGAIN. Then today, I am going about my business as usual, getting tired, frustrated and a little cranky and finally the voice in my head answered back, but I don't smoke anymore. Just like that. And it kept happening all day long. The thought would pop up that I want to smoke and the answer came, but I don't smoke anymore. It was really cool. I know I still need to work at this and keep reading and coming here, but it feels like a big weight has lifted for me. Now it's not I can't smoke, it's simply I don't smoke. That little phrase just makes it so much easier to let the craving pass.
Thank you all for letting me come here and just type whatever my little heart desires. I have very little support IRL. Haven't even told my family yet because I have definitely been the girl who cried quit far too many times before. But I have never felt like this before about a quit. This is my time. I am committed and I am done. After a little more time has passed i will let my familty know, but the judgement from them when I fail is too scary. I don't need that anxiety over my head.
Anyway just wanted to say it was a good day and thank you for the support.
