Yester day…very bad day, however, I really want to do this, I am having a difficult time with the realization that these little sticks (cigs) are such an enormous part of my thinking, I’m miserable with them, and now without them…makes no logical sense!
So as I said yesterday…ROTTEN, I tried to use humor, but alas I gave in.
Yesterdays message…..
can't smoke, don't drink ...looks as if I need a hobby, perhaps shark petting, spider milking, grizzly bear tag, or maybe javelin catching? ya know something
that will relax me...ugh....this is crazy..went through 2 packs of gum today!!!
Okay after work, I decided to go for my 4/5 mile walk, I was ready to try my NEW walking shoes, I was feeling frazzled, and thought the walk might help....Just as Murphy would have it, those walking shoes, are the worst!! I might as well been walking in my stiletto's ...they were that comfortable!!
I only made it 2.0 miles and gave in...yeah, I mean I gave in, I caved, I sank, whatever you want to call it...I screwed up I had a cig, just one, but, I did, and today I am kicking myself in the (you know where) So my apologize to all of you out there!! just a bad day all around yesterday!! Geeze...I feel like such an ass!