I am going to make this as short as I can. My brother hospitalized himself the other day due to severe depression and suicidal thoughts. They ran blood work and found Meth and other illegal substances in his system, so he is on a 72 hour hold. Our entire family is devastated.
He suffered a back injury when he was 24 (is 47 now) and has been through 7 back surgeries. Yes, he has a long history of drug abuse. We have tippy toed around for so long. He has two sons who are devastated and blaming themselves.
There is no substance in this world that will ever ease any of our problems. They numb them - for a little while - whether stinkorettes, alcohol, etc. They have dire effects on our health and what the hell are we thinking - certainly not about our family members and what this will do to them the day we require oxygen and assistance to live!!
I am going to leave you with this song and ask you please, for yourself, your health, your joy that you will find when you overcome the Nicodemon and kick him out of your life - think about those around you that this affects too. Find a hobby, go for a walk, meditate, take a class, find a support group (like here;), anything, anything, anything........................but quit!! Quit destroying yourself and those around you. That is what ALL substance abuse does. It solves nothing - it hurts everything and everyone - and, there is no substance other then good health and healthful living that is your friend!!!!!
So - here is my song for the day (I may have posted it before?)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0VDNMtn0t2A