12/13/13
I knew I wanted to quit. But I knew I had tried several times and failed and didn’t want that to happen again. So, I re-found this site (had come here before but wasn’t ready to commit). “This time---this time I’ll do it right” is what I told myself. So, I listened to what the people who had some time said in their blogs. I listened to those that sounded confident (NOT COCKY) and followed their advice. “Don’t use negative words”, “Believe in yourself”, “Want this more than you want anything else today”, “Keep them away from your face”.
I got through Hell Week with no scars, Heck Week had a couple of rougher days than Hell Week but made it through that too. Then, oh no……the dreaded NO MANS LAND! Now I began to fear. “You won’t have the same Atta Girls that you had at the beginning” (true), “You may feel confident and secure in your quit but craves will blindside you” (true), “Stay alert, awake and on guard” (true), “You’ll get through it”. I HAVE!!! I am at the end of NML.
I know that I still have to watch what I’m doing, I know I can’t take my smoke free days for granted, I know that some days I’m more fragile than others. I read and LISTENED to Giulia’s blog yesterday. Quit Maintenance. She is 1 of the Elders that I believe and believe in. I would like to list everyone here that has “been there” for me but that would be impossible. I have met and connected with many people here and made some good friends.
Look, there are some of my friends waiting for me just over the line….I see their hands stretched out to pull me into the light!!!
My next goal: On 2/5/14 I will have 6 months smoke free!!!! On 2/7/14 I will get on the big bird and fly to Orlando where I will get to meet some of you, put a face with a name, get hugs and also (Tommy promised) some Krispy Kremes!
I couldn’t have done this without so many of you!
Love you, Sharon 130 days of Freedom!