I know I've said it time and time again, but I'm really serious this time around. Earlier this year I went up to a pack/day, stayed at that amount for months and for the past few weeks, I've managed to get back down to 5 or less. I moved in with my dad at the end of June of this year and found out a lot of things recently. He had cancer 6 5 or 6 years ago due to smoking for 10+ years but now it's benign (thankfully!) and ever since he found out, he's never picked up a cigarette again. I will do my best to keep that in mind to help myself. I really don't want my cigarette addiction to worsen to the point of getting sick. And seeing that he has the will power to save himself from the addiction gave me some hope. I can't let myself give up like I did many times before. I know I need to do this for myself and for the ones that care about me.
I haven't forgotten my motto: Stay strong and keep going!
Thank you for hearing me out. I hope you're all doing well on your own journey. I'm here if anyone needs support or a friend (I do as well), just leave me a message anytime 🙂
Have a lovely daaay.