I have not been close to my kids in a very long time. Mostly, honestly because if smoking! Yes smoking. I spend a lot of time by myself smoking. ( With my husband too) That's the part I hate about smoking. Time wasted. People and responsibilities neglected. Procrastination. I hate this life. No more! No more! I love my family. I love my dig and cat.I want to make it up to all of them. I want to be happy. Having my family to live will make me happy. My addiction is bad. Very bad. Consumes most if my life. I will do this. One moment at a time. One thought at a time. That cigarette has robbed me and my family. I won't let that happen again. Mornings are rough. I hobble along trying to get my balance as my dig is jumping because he wants to go out. I will hobble out to the fenced in area with my dog and start here with this community. That's the time to reach out! Plan.... keep my quititude!!!