I don't know what to say. Just reaching out. I always said i'd quit by age 40. Well, that's in 2 months. I dont want to die a painful death. Nevermind, i dont want to stink, i dont want to smoke outside in 2 degree weather etc etc. I've been smoking since age 14. I have recovered from other addictions, yet this one has been my longest standing. I just keep praying. That's what worked for me in the past with other addictions. And support from others trying to stay stopped. I pray I will be a power of example someday. I smoked 3 cigarettes today, and been using nicotine replacement. I plan to have a completely smoke free day tomorrow. I know i can do it!