Share your quitting journey
This concept is so obvious if you read on this site for more than 1 day. We support each other, we encourage each other.......we even chastise each other if needed. And all this is done in love and with honesty. Are there times when someone comes on a bit strong? Of course, we are human. And our situations off of this site effect how we hear what is being said and how we respond to what is being said.
I'm not bringing this up to re-hash some of the recent blogs.
I'm bringing this up as it applies in my life today.
My oldest sister is 15 years older than I am. In my childhood she was often more of a mother than a sister. Later she definitely was my "bigger, wiser" sister who would tell me what to do and how to do it. In the last 15 years of so she has become my friend. She encourages me and builds me up. She jumps to my defense when something is not quite right with my kids or friends. She also occasionally falls back into "I'm the big sister and you will listen to me!" She has said that, in a joking manner but totally serious.
In the last year as our other sister began to fail Sis and I could support each other in our worries and our fears.
Need to say that Sis and I deal in different ways with our emotions. I tend to pick up my feelings, put them in a box and set them on a shelf until I can look at them. Unless I've packed the box too full.....then it explodes and I (OMG NO) show my feelings without the filter I want to keep on.
Sis has had big feelings over our sister's failing and recent death. She gets angry. She has told me "don't tell me what to do" when I've made a suggestion. When I suggested that we all tell our unconscious sister it is ok to leave she said "don't go pulling that therapy thing with me!" I could give many more examples but you get the idea.
I have been hurt and when I try to talk she tells me "I can't now....later".
I have found out since that her blood sugar has been extremely high and this may be part of the reason for her explosion of emotions.
Her medication has been changed and she says she is feeling better.
Today I go to her house and we go through old pictures of our family. No lack of emotions there, right?
We also are going to talk about the last few months and how our relationship has taken a hit.
I love Sis and want us to continue the love and relationship that is is healthy for both of us.
She has been there for me through so much (did I tell you I was sitting between her and my future brother in law when he proposed or that when I cried as they were leaving for their honeymoon he suggested that take me along?). I want whatever years we have together to be healthy and loving.
So, I will go today and hug her, tell her I love her, tell her I'm sorry for my part and HOPE she can tell me the same. It is hard for her to say "sorry".
Family........can't live with them, can't live without them? I more believe I can't live without them.
Sharon 355 DOF
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