I need help

[Grammy25]

My boyfriend of almost two years went to work out of the country and it has been more than a week since he was supposed to come home😢! I got news that he was in a plane crash and was in critical condition but lately he is starting to recover but it is going to take awhile before he can be released from the hospital to come home! I have been totally wanting to have a cigarette just to shut off my feelings of crying and the mornings are worse! I have also been sleepy a lot and I feel that a cigarette would help me to stay awake! Does anyone have any suggestions as to how I could get past this time in my life without smoking?? Thank you