where do I start? I'm not sure. That's why I haven't been here. I didn't want to come here and post because I'm not doing "well" In fact I've been smoking for the last three weeks. Yup. It sucks. I feel like crap. I can't breath like I was. I'm not exercising as much. I'm not drinking enough water. I'm abusing my body is what I'm doing. UGH!
As soon as I light up that first one my husband says 'My best friend is back!' so I kept on smoking and we started communicating again. Not a reason to smoke. There is no reason to light up but that is what I used as an excuse. I kept thinking I would feel better about the anxiety I was feeling too. It got better but I'm wondering if it was something my mind was doing to myself? It wasn' even but 3-4 days after I went out for my husbands Birthday.
Anyway, I think about this place, and quiting all over again all the time. I keep thinking I'll just jump back on again. I know I can do it. I just hate those first few days. I hate smoking, I really do! So I need help. I can't seem to pick a day and really stick to it. I was going to do it today but bought smokes last night. Then I keep thinking I should wait until next week...
I'm also unsure about doing it with Chantix or without. I just don't know what's best for me.