I am so mad at myself that I can't see straight. I was out in the car the other day with a cell phone that needed charging and my PTSD hit me and I could hardly see straight. Before I knew it, I was smoking a cigarette. This time of the year is so hard for me that I don't think straight. For those who do not know, between Thanksgiving and January 8th, my daughter was murdered, my brother who was my best friend died, and I found my mother and father dead. I know that it is no excuse and I hate myself. This happened 2 days ago. That is why I have not been on our site because I was ashamed. I am on my quit this afternoon once again. 145 days down the drain. God help me.
God bless
Carolyn