Could have lost it so easily yesterday ....but I didn't!!
I have a teenager with a rage problem. Its been under control for awhile now , but have had previous instance of physical and verbal violence from him. ...and yesterday was another one of those days.
I'm not sure why but in raising 3 kids I'm thoroghly convinced video games are on the forefront of much of the drug use and violence of this generation. I've seen it, Rage , physical aggression, disrespectfulness . At times its just horrible. I have tried to limit the access to video games for this reason but now my youngest has turned 18 about 3 weeks ago ..and hes pulling this "I'm 18, you can't do anything about it" card. In a nut shell, its the attitude: the heck with homework i'm playing my xbox and you cant stop me.
I can honestly say when I am able to keep them away from the video games these things dont happen or aren't NEARLY as bad when they do...and most of the things I have had done or said to me by my children would have gotten me knocked on my ass by my dad 30 yrs ago ...that is providing I ever went braindead enough to even attempt it. But these days you can't do a thing about it. The kids hold the cards on how far you can push the discipline!...and they know it. It doesn't keep me from trying tho
Yesterday it esculated to that rage situation. I found out he's failing one of his senior class requirements (english) and tried to talk to him about it and we were off and running Not the first by any stretch. He's SO smart too , doesn't even struggle but is of the thought that he is special or something and thinks he doesn't have to do the same as everyone else ..like homework , he is failing simply due to homework that isn't turned in. And you can NOT talk to him about it . It's been a very frustrating situation for a couple of years now but now we are down to the nitty-gritty...final semester of senior year and if he doesn't get over himself he isn't going to graduate!!
Now if that isn't a valid reason to trigger an attack for a major nicotine fix! .. funny how the mind immediately goes there under that kind of situation , but it did.
I didn't do it , but it was really difficult afternoon of nasty nicotine thoughts.
This morning I'm better . Teenager is still here after threatening to run away from home. Hubby says I should have let him go. But I'm still hoping to get him through high school to June then I guess he can be on his own. He still have his xbox even after threatening me over it as I really didn't want it to esculate to physical violence again and I know it could, but I have turned his phone off and he's been put on fair warning ...no more second chances...this is his LAST chance, he better catch a clue and do what needs to be done. He wants to be treated like an adult , guess he'll figure out the hard way . Just like us battling our demons ...in this case nico-demon ...there are consequences to our actions and eventually most of us learn....
The Definition of insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result!!!
New day ..hoping for a better day! 🙂
