I finally received nicotine patches, not from the durn quit line but from a caring independent source I met on another site. I feel a lot better both mentally ( even though I was having a vivid dream) and emotionally because I can do this again. I am not using the word try because its not about trying. Its about doing. I have had a lot of practice and a lot of time to think about my triggers and where I went wrong last time.
I am going to write more now. I feel good about this.
Blessings,
Jiva
