Guys! I've made it to my seventh day.
And today was a game day. And the dames won! Girl, it was awesome. We won 291 to 74, no shit. I screamed like a banshee from the crowd (I'm not a bouter yet). They did sooo amazing. If you aren't familar with Derby, there are two 30 minute halves and a 15 minute halftime. Normally I would slip out there and smoke with other folks. I didn't, today, but I watched my quit buddy go out there and smoke. It broke my heart. I wanted to so badly to go with her, but I went pee and got a beer instead.
Then, there's an after-bout party. This is a common derby tradition. All the girls go out and get stupid drunk and party until the break of dawn. I went, I puffed on a 0.0 nicotine vape, and came home after about an hour.
And I'm feeling super bummed right now. I know I should be proud that I didn't smoke and I don't understand why I'm so depressed. I didn't even really want a cigarette. I even sat outside with my smokers (because all of my friends are smokers and I like sitting outside) and I didn't have a problem. I just got really depressed and came home. I don't understand my reaction. Everything went really well! Why am I so bummed out? Ug.
