I am sitting here at the computer, beginning to think about all the possible situations I 'm going to face tomorrow-my first day of not smoking. It's 7 pm and i have 5 hours till my life as a smoker ends. I spent the last 3 hours scouring the house for all ashtrays, lighters and anything remotely used to smoke or light one. These items are all outside in the trash.
I have no fear of the trials i will begin to go through tomorrow. i do have a support system set up at work and home.. My mind is made up, ITS OVER, I'M DONE, and with the grace of god I'll live to see my grandson graduate from college.
This site has really opened my eyes to the trail ahead. You are all so supportive and seem to be ready to help with advice and words of cheer.Its amazing, and it gives me the help/hope /encouragement i've needed to really tackle this addiction.
Just sitting here and ppouring out my thoughts is relaxing and even freeing in some ways I could drone on for ever, but; alas I do have to sleep as 3am wake up for work is early. I close with the knowledge that tomorrow i'll be on my way to becoming a non-smoker, and I have no doubt in my mind that I can make it.