Tomorrow is 250 days for me...think I'll go on vacation on Wednesday 🙂 Jusk kidding a little. Really though, I am taking a vacation, its just a coincidence that I'm leaving on day 251. I wanted to stop in as I've not been on here enough in the past few months. I'm not near cracking, actually I'm quite proud of myself for continuing to chant NOPE when I've got a craving. The fourth of July holiday was by far the worst cravings I've had in months. I was upset with myself because I didn't see it coming. I'm an extrovert and party animal at heart and work in a bar as my second job. I'm around alcohol and partaking myself on many occasions during any given month. That said, this was my first time to the lake in years and I was celebrating HARD, right along with all of my smoking friends 😞
I held up and didn't give in, but I really did have to tell myself several times over the course of three days, NOT ONE PUFF EVER....EVER...EVER!!!!! It was difficult and I was ashamed of myself for not being prepared with any gum, tic tacs, ice or any of my hand toys. Afterall, I know from first hand experience (and TEN LOST YEARS from the freedom train) the cravings will always return. In a previous quit, I made it 22 months. My best friend quit several years after I did but just is getting ready to celebrate her 8 year anniversary and here I am at 249 days. Oh well, the good news is I'm back on the freedom train and this time I'm a permenant passenger!
I wish everyone reading this "permenant passenger" status on the freedom train as well 🙂