Woot!!! BAck on track from my rough day on Saturday. Thanks to all who sent messages and shared your thoughts, words of wisdom and encouragement to me that day and lovingly smacked me into reality check. First, I never intentionally planned on going 10 hours without a ciggarette it just sort of happened being on a nonsmoking campus and nonsmoking building and the event lasting longer than it was supposed to. After reading everyone's imput I do realize I was being hard on myself, after all this wasn't supposed to be my quit date. I just had too high expectations for myself and told myself since I went 10 hours this would be good time to try to quit. and the reality is I was not prepared how to handle or tackle that day and found myself in overwhelmed state. This is reason I have isolated myself and don't got to events that don't allow me to smoke. Last night as I was smoking my last smoke for the night I realized that was the last cigarrette in my pack and had no more. On typical day I would have ran out late at night to get cigarettes. I decided to take deep breathes and not rush to the nearest store but calmly told myself I will get them in the morning. Got up this morning and delayed going to get them until I had 2 cups of coffee while playing my word champs game that distracts me from smoking, then fed the dogs. Was up for little over an hour before I ran for the cigarette run. The nice feeling was I didn't feel like I was in a state of panic because I couldn't smoke right away. Got home and challenged myself to wait 10 minutes before smoking by doing deep breathing. I actually managed to wait 20 min before I lit up. Still working on reading and reading to educate myself more and more. 14 days till quit day. Thanks so much!!!
