its the first one that kills you, not the last, so we, people like me n you, have to stay away from the first one, I can not nor will not tell anybody what to do, so i will tell you that AA was the only thing after rehab that worked for me, your call, you say you don't do well with human contact, there's aaonline.org and there's also aaonline.net they have online meetings, check them out, n re-member, its the first one that will kill you, be safe, get to a meeting online asap, for your own good, as soon as you can make a connection, with another women on line AA the better you will be...
just stay sober, no matter what, don't pic up the first drink...
jv
