Hey Jeff, I had the fear too of the big ole bugger man gonna make me fail, but as I started it was not as bad as I was afraid of. I am a friend of Bill W., and have used those steps helping me. I got to the point though that I wanted to not smoke more than I wanted to smoke. Is funny how I would work out, and then a few minutes later light up negating all that work out. It seemed like insanity to me to do that, and after 42 years of smoking had to start somewhere, and am so happy to have this site of ex's here to help. Just know we are all here for you, and we are all here for each other with a common purpose of stopping. Hope this is a great smoke free day for you. Dan