Hello everyone, my name is Gi. I smoked from the age of 14 to 23. I quit smoking at 23 right before I got married to a non-smoker. It was a struggle, but I got through it. (although i slipped up now and again around smoking friends while having a drink but never really went back) Well after 13 years of marriage and 2 children, we got divorced. I then met a great man, who unfortunately is a heavy smoker. It didn't really bother me at first, but slowly, I let my guard down and picked up the ugly habit again. In times of stress, I smoked heavily too. I am very disappointed in myself, especially that i watched my father in law die from lung cancer, which should have turned me off from smoking for good, but I guess the addiction was lying dormant within my brain. My kids hate it and are disappointed as well. Me and my boyfriend were living together for 2 1/2 years but because of circumstances with my kids, we moved to separate places but are still dating. Just being around him is a trigger, as well as talking on the phone, coffee breaks at work, out for a drink, and stressful times. I have tried to quit a few times in the last year, but to no avail. I get weak and reason with myself why its ok. Its not ok!! I really want to quit but my boyfriend has no intention of quitting at this time. So my problem is how to be in a relationship with someone who smokes without getting crazy. I'm scared that I wont be able to tolerate it once I quit. Anyone have this problem? I love this man but I'm not going to love the smoking... I really wish he would quit with me to support each other. He supports my decision, but isn't ready and doesn't want the pressure. I'm nervous about the quit, I know its for the better in so many ways. I'm hoping I can deal with his smoking. I want to make myself and my children proud, and be healthy!
