Hello, my name is Peter. I decided to quit nicotine yesterday when my girlfriend of one year, who I love, expressed her concern for my health. Specifically, she said she didn't want me to get mouth cancer. I started smoking cigarettes in college, needing one every hour or so. I then changed over to dip when I started playing rugby. It soon became an all day habit. I always had to either have outside access or have a spitter. I took "small" dips, keeping them in the back of my mouth so nobody would notice. This was required because I literally have ALWAYS had a dip in. Every waking second I needed a constant flow of nicotine. This is why nicotine patches are a good option to help me quit.
I've quit once before but had a psychotic episode a couple of months afterward. It wasn't a direct cause, but one of many things that culminated to cause my episode. I'm in a much better place emotionally now and much more stable than I was. I think now is the right time to quit because of this stability. I've already phased marijuana out of my life without unravelling, now it's time to fight an addiction that is even closer to my core.
It's very hard because I have a desk job that requires a lot of thinking and I'm used to having a dip in all day. It'll be hard to discover my triggers because like I said, I always had a dip in. Being around people with cigarettes is definitely a trigger because I readily smoked cigarettes while at bars, etc.
Sorry for the long post, but this is my first day without a dip in a long time and I needed to rant.
