It’s hard to express. Lately has felt like did I ever smoke?
But at occasionally I have an intensity of “Oh I could just take a detour to the gas station and pick up a juul.”
But I just don’t do it. I shut down the fantasy because it doesn’t have a physical force behind it. It’s just a fantasy.
The weird part is if I wanted anything a cigarette would be the dealers choice. I haven’t had one since I “quit” that probably 8 years ago and went to vaping. But it’s the crave I have. Strange. But I just let it pass.
it’s funny because addition in my case is active. I must act to make it happen. To go from wanting a hit to getting it has many steps. I must actively do those in order to get that hit. So if i become a wet blanket , a bump in the road, a dead weight, I can out wit my minds desire for it. Just wait it out. It’s possible. And once it’s possible it’s doable. And then we just keep going with that- not doing anything until we’re 90 days without nicotine.
anyway wanted to check in with all you. Thanks for all the support along the way.
