hopeful

[melsue]

Yesterday tested me , the worst I'd say so far . I could have easily given in and the scares me being almost 2 weeks now . Does it get easier ? I know I've come a long way to throw it away and I hate that I could have thrown it out the window in just a heartbeat . The one thing that helped me was how weak I must be and the people that it would hurt or think how weak am I . it's easy to quit right ? It's easy right ? just do it and why is it so hard to do ? because I'm a ex addict and it's not easy or a quick fix . I'm proud of not giving in as I woke this morning and even with the stugggles I had yesterday that tested me so much , I'm not going back . hoping it gets a little easier going into my 3 week . Have a smoke free day friends