hello everyone,:) i got home last night, had a reli good vaca, didnt jetski tho, but that was ok, if i didnt smoke or wait till i was stage 4copd, then mayb i couldve done everything i wanted to do, but i cant cry over spilt milk as the sayin goes.:) soo, i made the best of what i couldnt do and did the next best thing that was closer to it. hellooooo, thats all b/c i made the choice to smoke!! so the main thing was i had a good time with my kids and my family. my dad looks great, we had such a nice time.my kids reli enjoyed it. they jetskied i watched them and had fun watchin them have fun,:) we took them to mcguries,an irish pub and resturant. they make the best bushwackers LMAOLMAO yesss i had 2 of them,lol. went to the water park in destin,that wasok, i did get a great tan tho lmao .
The fact that i tried to swim in my uncles pool and couldnt reli made me think alilmore about what i did to myself. I mean, i reli couldnt swim, i used to be a swimer, i no how to swim, i couldnt stay on top and then i was so outa breath that i thought i was gona drownso i stayed on the floats, the steps and on my feet and made the best of that also.
this was a reli good vacation, i didnt miss anything b/c i hada go lite a SICKORETTE,:) i got to enjoy every bit of it and was right there in the middle of everything.
sooo now iam home and its back to reality,and so much to do. ohh yeaaa, i got a pakage from columbis presbertarian hosp. i have a appt for aug,19th. with the transplant dept.meeting with a pulmo specialist,surgon, and a few others, i have a packit of mayb 40-50 pages to read.
so i guess where moving right along.i wont be dissipointed with the outcome,whatevers meant to be will be, i believe everything happens for a reason.I keep thinkin, if i get one new lung, my other lung is reli bad also. if i rejecty that new lung what happens or if i get 2 lungs and i reject both then what,?? these are things i have to question so im gettin a lil book just for all my questions to be asked, if u guys have anything u think will help me out, throw it out here :))) no matter how stupid the question might sound, ill be askin them everything. this is a mtter of life and death. theres no such thing as a stupid question if u ask me LMAO something stupid can save my life right????? 🙂
well, its good to be home, missed talkin tou guys. and hope ur all doing great. newbies!!! u can do this. dont wait to be me, b/c i was once u and that wasnt to long ago eaither. so like i was once u , u can become me, iam stage 4 copd w/ end emphysema for those of u who dont me. and this is the most horrible desease out there.theres no cure, u stay as is, or u go down hill. both my lungs are shot, damaged so bad, thats what 40 yrs of smoking did for me, I was a faithful dedicated smoker,smoking was my life at one time! it was more of a soulmate then my husband was to me, i was gona die smoking so i thought, now i m just dying in a way so to speak from the smoking. wow, talk about being self distructive right. soo, quit while ur ahead b4 u have to die trying. Joanne, smokefree, 248 days,smoked SICKORETTES 40 yrs,2-3 pks aday... but, im still goin strongggg :))))))
