good morning. i have not bloged in a while so i thoughtm i would today. today is my 120 day quit.4 months. im almost out of no mans lands.my husband haqs been gone now 3 weeks yesterday.it has been very hard on me.im trying not to withdraw from everthing but it is hard. but i know i needed for me to blog today and it feels good.yesterday was not a very good day for me i was very depressedso i called my paster and he prayed with me and i felt better. my problem is i have a lot of guilt at how things ended with jerry and i. even though we loved each other very much there was a lot of problems. and unfinished business. but any way im so proud of my 4 month quit .its a solid quit too. i dont think ill ever pick them up again or i would have done so already. i have 1 friend where i live at and he told me the other day that im going through the fire. and really that is exactly how i feel. and before i go i want to say a special thank you to niki nyima cyn and thomas for encouraging me and never giving up on me. and also the pictures are beautiful...thanks and for the many new ones that have joined the site that i dont know i will keep you all in my prayers. just remember nope not one puff ever......erma god bless you all