happy on demand! dead on arrival:(

[rainbow2]

i woke up today feeling unusually fine so i did not wear the patch. by afternoon had a headache...by 9pm was ready to reach for a piece of nicotine gum because i felt so sad about how angry i got at my kids (out of proportion angry) and i hate to think im gonna be this mother when im not:( i hate nicotine for doing this to me. i talked myself out of the gum and put the patch back on eventhough ill be taking it back off soon. when i go to bed. but it did take the edge of somehow. i dont feel sooo happy but i can work better with patch than with no patch!

i feel i want to chew the gum and be happy on demand..so i can lift myself when duty calls...when i need to be alert happy there for kids...etc...and i feel kind of sad that i cant anymore....if i do im afraid ill have worse problems than allergies in my mouth, eventhough no dr said that i must quit gum...i feel its had a negative effect on me.

i promised myself to make it up to the kids tom by being the nicest mum and perhaps explaining to them why i was so angry. i feel its not fair for anyone to be that down depressed and miserable and angry,,,esp not around kids and spouse...when i get off nicotine for good my number one priority will be to try not to hurt the ones i love the most bc really thats all i care about.

by way of background. i have been quit from cigarettes for 2.5 years. i ve been on nicotine gum eversince.. lateley been sufering from burning mouth and throat and some oral allergies and histamine intolerance and that is why im trying to get off the gum and off nicotine hopefully. been off the gum and on low dose patch for a little over a week now.

thanks for listenening

R xx

[exsmokermom]

You need to explain to your children that nicotine is a drug and that you are addicted to it; that you are going through drug withdrawal and ask them to have some patience with you.  They ARE NOT to young to understand and will be your strongest supporters! You'll make it.

[exsmokermom]

Your kids will also love and respect  you for your honesty. 

[SaucyQ]

Congratulations on getting cigarettes out of your life and away from your family.

Have you tried following a prescribed program for getting off nicotine? Don't the patches include instructions for weaning off of them?

Do you have a doctor to speak with about your using nicotine as an antidepressant? Maybe there's a safer, less addictive drug that can bring you relief.

You might also try increasing the amount of water you drink every day. Since our brains are 85% water, even mild dehydration can make us tired, cranky, and miserable.

http://www.freedrinkingwater.com/water-education3/21-water-and-depression-stress-anxiety.htm

Hope you feel better soon.

[YoungAtHeart]

I am so sorry you got into this predicament - that is the problem with self-dosing NRTs. 

Don't be so afraid of the craves as you wean yourself off the patch.  PLEASE don't be so afraid of the withdrawals - lots of folks here have been through them - and nobody died!!!!  Uncomfortable  - yes!  Doable?  Absolutely!  Maybe just think of it as a case of the flu --- get through 2-3 weeks and it gets easier and easier and easier.

It is SO worth doing!  Don't you just hate that you are STILL paying Big Tobacco for the addiction they started you on?

Get to it - you CAN do this!

Nancy

[Terri103]

I think you will do great with the patch!  Just follow the plan.  I've been starting to feel better and keep thinking I will change the plan, using the patch less or speed it up.  But then I read a sad story of someone who broke their quit and then I say.....stick with the plan.  

Congrats on 2.5 years of no smoking!!  That is the big deal!  Now, you can just go a few more weeks or so, and then you will be free of the nicotine.  

[rainbow2]

thank you for your feed back and input. i will stick with the patch foe a while explain to kids and be patient. i know what cold turkey feels like as well, so next time i will be more ready. it s not that bad but it needs patience.lots of it...and im sure it does get better.