yes, today I am crabby and find myself looking for excuses to light up. Happy to say I have NOT smoked but boy was i working hard trying to convince myself to. I woke up very proud at yestedays accomplishment of being able to hike with my family and not huff and puff. Plus I also figured that I have saved over 75 dollars in the past 15 days not buying cigarettes. Then all hell broke loose. I made the big mistake of getting on the scales only to find out that I have gained 4 pounds over the last 15 days. First reason I wanted to smoke, not to gain weight , but i didn't . Then I went shopping and thought I had lost my cell phone. I retraced my steps and drove over an hour to all the places I had been only to walk away empty handed. Than my daughter became ill in the car. Oh boy did I want a cigarette. Like the cigarette was going to make my daughter feel better or my cell phone magically appear. I drove home worried about my child, angry about my cell phone and pissy because I wanted a cigarette. When I got home I went straight to my comptuer to order a replacement phone when one of my adopta sons called my cell from the house phone and heard an ever faint ring coming from my bedroom. He laughed at me handed me my phone and shook his head while walking away. I hung my head in shame because i can't believe how I was acting and it's all over a stupid cigarette. I can smile about it now because I made it without lighting up but dang I am so glad this day is over
