last night i was good. i was three days from my first month of being clean and my aid was being used less and less. Then, my stepmother started in on me on how i'm living off of her and my dad and showing no progress. She just keeped mentally beating the shit out of me and by the time she was done all i could do is cry. i cried all night to my fiancee who doesn't live with me and all this morning. i can't take it anymore and i went and bought a pack and cried for falling off with two days till my first month. i'm stable now but she's one of my triggers, and she don't care. not once has she said she was sorry even when she saw me crying, so what do i do?? thinking about my child while fighting the urge made it worse, because she's going around telling everyone how proud she is of her mommy. i was quitting for her and for my fiance but manly my own health, now i'm lost again on what to do.
