Today is my sister Mary's Celebration of Life. We have planned the music, the pictures (slideshow and collage), who will speak and the Bible passages. I agreed to pick out and read 3 passages and then I found a book of Sister poems that was in Mary's things. I had given her the book on Christmas 1997. Inside a page was marked with a note that said "To be read at my Celebration of Life. Author is Carey Marten but the words are for you dear sisters. Love you" I will read that as well.
Wish I could say that I have had NO thoughts of smoking. I have. Glad to say that they have been less than I expected and I HAVE NOT SMOKED! I have reminded myself that 1) smoking won't bring her back, 2) I don't want to start over, 3) I would disappoint myself, my family here and my EX family, 4) my anniversary is coming up in 15 days! SMOKING WILL NOT FILL THE HOLE IN MY HEART TODAY!
This is a tough day. I don't cry in front of people.......anyone want to place a bet on that today? I've been crying some by myself, hoping that will allow some of the pain out so it won't be a dam (dam*) breaker at the service.
If I cross your mind today.....I would appreciate prayers for strength and acceptance.....for me and for my family. My oldest sister (Sis) is really having a tough time of this. I'm struggling to be with her for support and still take care of myself.
Thanks to my family here......I appreciate all the prayers and kind words that I've gotten here, on FB and on email.
Love you!
Sharon 350 DOF (look how close the 6% club is now!)