Hello everybody!
I just wanted to start by saying I made it! I went to my family Christmas event and it was wonderful. And good news! I remained strong and didn’t vape or smoke the entire visit, despite being around it the whole time. It was an extremely empowering experience. Despite the accomplishments, I did end up taking a cigarette home with me; however, it’s sitting on my table, untouched. Every time I get a craving, I look at it and think about all my progress, how unpleasant it would feel, and how I just don’t want it. I think in-depth about the bad way it would make me feel like, and how the craving wouldn’t go away from just one; i think about how it would only make me sick again, and how not a single hit is worth resetting. It’s my sort of way of cementing how bad I really want to quit, and if I ever feel like the urge to smoke it is too strong, I will communicate with my fiancé who will throw it out for me (but i feel like it would have happened already if i felt that way). I plan to throw it out myself soon, but having it feels like a badge of honor, like how I have freed myself from it and it’s not part of me anymore. I feel strong and confident about my quit and my progress, and as much as I still have room to grow, I finally feel like my quit is going to stick. Thank you guys for all the support through this, it’s been a world of help.
