Tomorrow marks the second anniversary of my fiancé's unexpected death. We had a very tumultuous relationship but he was the love of my life and his sudden death devastated me. It doesn't feel like 2 years ago, it feels like it happened yesterday. It's nothing to smoke over, it certainly wouldn't help and I am really tired of starting over. So I will be sad, but I will be smoke free. It will be a day of pampering and self care. A walk in the sun, a bubble bath, comfort food, a good book and a cat in my lap. I will probably be here often, reading blogs for distraction. And definitely a good long cry
