I've never written a blog before, actually I've never even considered it. So here goes, hopefully I do it right. After 20 years of smoking, I'm calling it quits. I know it's time. My daughter is constantly on me about quitting. My middle son mentions something every once in a while. And now my 4yr old is telling the lady at the drive through where i get my cigs "Hey, we need to get momma's cigarettes." In the past I've told myself and everyone who mentions anything about my quitting, Hey it's my only vice! I used to drink rather heavily when I was in my early 20's. I've quit that. I might have a drink a couple times a year, whereas it used to be 4-5 nights a week I'd get drunk...or at the very least a buzz. So in a way I was telling myself that it was ok that I am smoking because I quit drinking.
I've tried to quit a few times over the last several years. But I'm not sure I was really serious about it. I'd find myself sneaking smokes when others wouldn't see me. I'd tell myself...just one won't hurt. I really have no friends...I have aquaintances, but I can't open up and vent or cry on their shoulders. Other than immediate family, there is noone I can talk to for support, which is why I starting looking for a site like this. Hopefully I can meet some of you and can gain a new perspective on this whole quitting thing.
