First, I want to thank the people on this site who reached out to me in friendship, hope, and guidance. You have already made me feel at ease and given me great resources and advice. I spent last night reading the very uplifting suggested book by Allen Carr, The Easy Way to Quit, and I woke up this morning feeling good about myself for the first time in a very long time.
So many things surprise me. I have not had anywhere near the number of desires to smoke as I had the first two days and the passion for lots of white foods/carbs seems to have passed. I am not letting down my guard, just expressing interest in the difference even a couple of days can make. I can taste the "sour" in my favorite sourdough bread again and the vanilla in the graham crackers. I don't need as much sugar in my coffee because I can taste it more. And I'm writing, something I've been unable to bring myself to do since somewhere back in May. I don't think quitting smoking is entirely responsible for that, but perhaps it provided a crack in the depression that led me to this place that allows me to express without fear of boring people what I'm thinking and feeling.
Today I am happy to be alive and happy to have come this far.
