Over the weekend i hit a lot of milestones, and passed a lot of trigger situations. I went to a party and drank a few beers, i hung out with people i used to smoke with, i was offered a few cigarettes, and i was in my friends car with her smoking in it!! It was an awesome weekend, and i didn't have many cravings at all. In fact, i thought i smelled awfull after getting out of the smoking car. Today, however, is a totally different story. I am eating everything i can get my hands on, i have some anxiety going on, i am exhausted, and my head is pounding. I can't stop thinking that i am stopping on the way home to get a pack, even thogh i don't really want to. This addiction does not go away, and never comes back. It sneaks up on you, even if you are doing really well!! I hate that part of it, and i think it's one of the hardest things to deal with. I wish it would go after a certain time, and then be gone forever!!! I will keep fighting........NOPE!!
