Hello!
Today is my first day trying to fully quit vaping. After a classically long on/off relationship with vaping I’ve had to admit to myself how toxic it has become for me.
Weirdly though, now that I think of how toxic it “became” I realized it was always this toxic from the beginning.
I guess I feel kind of silly for this but when I vape I often get horrible headaches, migraines, and full on sick to my stomach (even on low doses of nic). But regardless of how horrible I feel I still, even more so, feel the pull of the addiction calling me back. I feel so weak for being addicted to something that’s harming me. Shouldn’t it be an easy pro vs con situation? Well, it certainly hasn’t felt like one.
I’ve tried to quit so many times but something always comes up in life that makes me feel like it’s “ok” to be weak. Parties and fun things or sad anniversaries or, this time, my dog dying on February 1st. Then right back to migraines and feeling sick.
Today is day one. Hopefully my last “day one” and I actually do it this time!
Wish me luck 🍀
-Paige
