Got bad brain MRI results. I have to quit or I will have dementia or a stroke. I am desperate because I have tried so many many times and the anxiety I have after the news today makes me want to smoke even more than usual. I've smoked for 55 years, I have cut down but never managed to quit. I've been the caregiver for my mom for 16 years. I looked at the calendar and can't even decide on a quit date because there's no way to predict what my days will be like.
I'm not even sure why I am on here. I feel totally lost and overwhelmed at quitting even though I know I should have done so decades ago. It sounds weird but it's like the one comfort I have been able to count on.
