So today is day 19 without a cigarette. I used patches for the first 7 days then wanted all nicotine out of my system so didn't use anything after day 7. I was doing good until I went to a friend's house who was having a party for her 10-year-old son. I was sitting in her living room and there were 11 adults there. 9 of them were smoking. It smelled so good and I wanted so badly to join in with them and smoke. I didn't have any cigarettes so I didn't, but then I came home and for the next two days I was feeling all crappy and sorry for myself. I thought about smoking 24/7 and kept thinking, "I love to smoke. Why am I depriving myself like this?". Then I was here at this website and I accidentally clicked something and a blog post popped up that listed a long list of diseases that are caused by smoking. Now, that's the whole reason I quit smoking because I'm absolutely terrified of getting a smoking-related illness. So I read that long list and knew right away why I was depriving mysdelf of something I love to do! After that I felt so much better about my quit and stopped telling myself I wanted to smoke.
I browse the posts over at quitnet and all these people are like "I breathe so much better now" or "I got so many benefits from quitting". I felt bad because I haven't noticed any difference since I quit smoking. Then yesterday my roommate said, "You haven't been coughing". I said, "What are you talking about? I never had a cough". He said, "You don't clear your throat anympore". Then I remembered! I used to always have gunk in my throat and I would have to clear my throat constantly. I had a job at a call center and I was always trying to clear my throat to talk to the customers. I hadn't noticed that that has stopped! Woo hoo!
