Sometimes I come here to read and I wonder, "What am I doing here, why do I need so much support,why has this been so hard?" !
OK, so I smoked 2/3rds of my life away but it has been a great life! I grew up in a wonderful family and I continue to have a wonderful and supportive family! My life has not been particularly stressful, just a nice ordinary life. I love learning and have always been a 'curious monkey' so getting an education was fun! My job can be extremely stressful but I no longer have to work,I choose to because it is also very fulfilling work! I have two wonderful big warm and fuzzy dogs that greet me at the door everyday with tails wagging! My poor husband has put up with insane moodiness since I started this quit and has been far more patient and kind than I have been with myself! I have not suffered any big loses or changes in my life for quite some time! I am very lucky to still have my health! My life is really pretty normal and pretty great! I am thrilled to be done with smoking but I do worry about what might happen if the going gets tough, which it will because that's what happens in life!
I know the answer to my questions is pretty simple...I have been addicted to nicotine pretty much my entire life, I am an addict! Right now I have a pretty simple plan: no matter what happens in the future, I will bite into a lemon and come here screaming for help before I would ever light up! Thank you all for being my lifeboat!
