Im in reflective mood again 🙂
Overall I am feeling sooo much better, so much calmer and my craves are reducing in intensity and frequency.
So whats changed?
The obvious answer is more time has passed and I keep being told that time is important on this journey
Sleep has become very important for me. Its not that i need more sleep, its my reactions to less sleep that has changed. As a smoker, i would just light up and smoke through being tired and exhausted but those days are gone. I now have to sleep when im tired or i become overly irrational and crazy emotional. Wracking sobbing crying is not fun when it just kicks in for no apparent reason..... but there is a reason, im tired!! Hmm you would have thought that i would know that at my age but hey, im still learning about this new me without my crutch 🙂
Im being a bit nicer to myself. I have always set impossibly high standards and goals for myself and never celebrate my successes. I belittle what i acheive. Not anymore. Im celebrating this one big time. This is a huge acheivement.
Another important learning for me this week was from a wonderful message that Sheri sent me about quitting not being a destination but a journey. Somehow I had become so absorbed in my quit that it felt like i was having to endure something until a point in time and then it would be over. Not sure what point i was looking for, maybe the end of no mans land? But Sheri's words made me realise that Ive done it already. I have quit smoking. Let me just say that again.
I HAVE QUIT SMOKING
Done, decision made, action taken. Thats it.
All I have to do now is stick with that decision and not allow anything or anyone to change my mind.
So what benefits am i seeing from quitting for 70 days so i can remind myself if i ever do get tempted
I can breathe!
I can breathe deeply
I do not wheeze anymore
I do not cough anymore
I sleep through the night
I wake up and can breathe straight away
I do not smell like an old ashtray
My breath is fresh
The stains on my fingers are gone
My tongue is healthy and not covered in thick dark brown gunge ( sorry, bit yucky that 1)
My teeth are cleaner
I can taste my food and relish the flavours
I can walk without gasping for breath
I can bend over and put my trainers on without gasping for breath
I have walked further in the last 2 months than i have walked in probably 20 years
My body is changing shape and feeling firmer from the walking
And the clean washing smells oh sooooo lovely 🙂
Life is great as a non smoker. I will stay strong
Have an awesome day everyone and thank you all for your support. Everyones comments contribute to my state of mind which today is awesome 🙂
